Music Video:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X1Fqn9du7xo

Hey, slow it down whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah I’m afraid whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

There might have been a time
And I would give myself away
Oooh once upon a time I didn’t give a damn
But now, here we are so whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don’t give up I’m workin it out
Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Yeah, it’s plain to see (plain to see)
that baby you’re beautiful
And it’s nothing wrong with you
(nothing wrong with you)
It’s me, I’m a freak (yeah)
but thanks for lovin’ me
Cause you’re doing it perfectly
(it perfectly)

There might have been a time
When I would let you step away
I wouldn’t even try
But I think you could save my life

Just don’t give up I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep comin around
Hey, whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)
Whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)

Just don’t give up on me
(uuuuuuh) I won’t let you down
No, I won’t let you down

(So I) just don’t give up
I’m workin it out
Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down
It messed me up (It messed me up)
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me

Just don’t give up I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in, i won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me


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I once again asked Horatio to post this up for me after I had passed on...Thank you Horatio for keeping me alive, for keeping my story alive.
Really what do you want from me? Everything that has happened in this life...what do you expect from me? This song, it means alot to me. Though I interpreted it simply as:  life asks for so much! I'm trying my best but everything bad seems to be coming back at you...do you know what I mean? It's like life itself it putting you down. I really at times did not know whether or not I should continue to live or not! There was one thing I kept putting off. It was to kill my uncle. My hesitation and doubt caused even more trouble. I was trying my best...what more is life asking for? Anyways...I still ask that question...what do you want from me?

"He is justly served./ It is a poison tempered by himself./ Exchange forgiveness with me, noble Hamlet./ Mine and my father’s death come not upon thee,/ Nor thine on me." (Act. 5 Sc.2)---Finally!!!!!

Finally I have done it! Claudius is dead. I did not wait or hesitate any longer! How funny, he died by the own poisoned drink he prepared himself. But wow! My mom died too and now I killed Laertes as well. But I feel that I can die now. The revenge, the deed has been done. I have forgiven Laertes and he has forgiven me as well...so I hope to see him and everyone else in heaven. Yes, I am writing this post before I die right now and I will have Horatio post it up later. Thank you Horatio, please do not forget the story of what has happened here. I am feeling very weak and my death is near. Man maybe if I had killed Claudius earlier none of this would have happened. But I guess that was supposed to happen, I guess that was God's plan all along. All that has happened here in this life...boy was it a hectic and crazy one! My goodness, so many people I know have died! But now it is my turn to leave this world. Goodbye world, and even though at times I almost wished I would have died sooner, I am going to miss this life! What is done... is done, Claudius deserved his death. I on the other hand hope to be pardoned by God when I reach heaven. Please forgive me as I enter into your kingdom...

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My goodness...I can see it now! the stairway... the stairway to heaven...

"How all occasions do inform against me,/ And spur my dull revenge! What is a man/ If his chief good and market of his time/ Be but to sleep and feed? A beast, no more./ Sure, he that made us with such large discourse,/ Looking before and after, gave us not/ That capability and godlike reason/ To fust in us unused."( Act. 4 Sc. 4)---No more Mr. nice guy for me

Alright, I think its time for me to stop wasting time. Everything is right in from of my eyes. The facts are staring me right in the face telling me that I should just take the revenge already and kill my uncle. The play that we just showed to everyone proved it right there. Claudius immediately wanted to walk out after he saw how it was very similar to how he killed my father. It was then I knew! Wow, I realized I should've just probably killed him then when he was in his room. It didn't matter whether he was praying or not, I should have just done it and gotten it over with it. Humans weren't made with this aggression for a reason and not just to let it be unused. It's no more Mr. Nice Guy for me anymore. It's about time that I kill Claudius. I will do it and maybe it might ease this depression and rage I have been going through recently.

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Wolverine I think I will follow in your footsteps and set out to take revenge on my uncle. I mean you two are related also. He is your brother and you want to kill him! Well... I think I will do the same, my uncle has caused so much pain in my life and took the life of my own father. It is about time I man up and do what needs to be done!

"For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,/ Th' oppressor’s wrong, the proud man’s contumely,/ The pangs of despised love, the law’s delay,/ The insolence of office, and the spurns/ That patient merit of th' unworthy takes,/ When he himself might his quietus make/ With a bare bodkin?" (Act. 3 Sc. 1)--- Should I live or die?

Okay now everything is getting to my head. I mean why bother anymore with this terrible life. Why would anyone want to deal with everything that is thrown at them. I mean I am seriously thinking about suicide right now. Does anyone else agree with me? I don't know why I bother with that question anymore no one listens, no one cares. This life sucks! Man it would be so much easier to just take my life right now with a knife or something. This life all its abuses, the rudeness and mistreatment that comes from everyone! My goodness, I know I wouldn't want to deal with that stuff anymore. Live or die, live or die, live or die...ahhh I'm so confused. There's just way too much stuff going on right now in my life. Maybe it is better to end it. But if I do where would I go? Well that's what is keeping me from doing that. I don't know what the afterlife is like. My father's ghost scared me even more telling me about the afterlife especially purgatory! Well all I know is that maybe whatever the afterlife is, it is better than what I have to deal with right now!!!!!

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No more, no more of this life! I cannot bear it any longer. Oh this girl must be feeling the same. The world around is crumbling, and falling apart! Just like mine. Well I will think about it...who knows maybe it will be better if I'm not in this terrible life anymore!!!

"I will tell you why. So shall my anticipation/ prevent your discovery, and your secrecy to the/ king and queen moult no feather. I have of late—but/ wherefore I know not—lost all/ my mirth, forgone all custom of exercises, and indeed it goes so heavily/ with my disposition that this goodly frame, the/ earth, seems to me a sterile promontory;" (Act. 2 Sc. 2)---Now I cannot trust my friends

Rosencrantz and Guildenstern, two of my good friends have now talked with the king and queen? Wow I cannot believe they followed what they told them to do! This world is so messed up now. They come here to try to seem helpful but rather they are doing the exact opposite. I didn't want them to tell me why they came to see me, I just told them myself. I didn't want them to tell me their little secret they had with the king and queen. But whatever, you can't trust anyone anymore. I don't know, this world is getting worse and worse. The emotions running through my mind right now are just simply put "ahhhh!" I'm feeling this emptiness inside now. Oh what to do, what to do!?!?

"Upon my secure hour thy uncle stole,/ With juice of cursed hebona in a vial/ And in the porches of my ears did pour/The leprous distilment, whose effect/ Holds such an enmity with blood of man/ That swift as quicksilver it courses through/ The natural gates and alleys of the body," - (Act. 1 Sc. 5) ---I knew it! curse my uncle!!!!

Wow I knew it! I just knew it! My uncle, how much he says he cares for me, how he says he is my father now. No, no, no this is all lies! He is the one who murdered my father! My own uncle...he murdered my own father...he murdered his brother!! How can he do this? Why did I have to find out from a ghost, from the ghost of my own father? What has he got to gain? I guess, the throne is what he truly desires. I bet there is more. I bet he wants my mother as well in bed. What a sick, dirty man to kill for personal benefit! I cannot stand this incest anymore. I cannot believe how quickly my mother has fallen for his tricks and lust, I hate her as well now! My goodness, why is all of this happening to me now? Wait, how do I know if this ghost is telling the truth? I don't know...I'm so confused. God, what am I supposed to do? Do I listen to this ghost and take revenge? I don't know. I will have to soon "act" myself. I will make myself seem crazy so that no one will have suspicion of me knowing about this event. Yes, that is exactly what I will do. Hopefully it will work. Today was just crazy! Let's see what will happen tomorrow, all I know now is that I want to take revenge on the one who killed my father, Claudius, you better watch out man!

Do you see this man here! This is exactly how I feel right now. Filled with rage. Ughhhh. I don't know what to do, but inside me I just want to burst out in revenge after I found out that my father was really murdered and that it was my uncle who murdered him! I literally just need to punch something right now!!

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